Feeling Guilty

I am feeling guilty and I think no matter what my decisions are - I will still feel guilty.

I am taking alot of days off this month. Leaving my students with a sub.

I have been planning to go to Mexico the week of Pres. Day to help Ibis while Kyle is here working. I have the subs all planned. Right after that I have a reading conference right when I get back - there is more subs. That is 7 days of having a sub. 4 of those days are personal/sick leave days. The other 3 are school/professional days.

I wasn't feeling guilty about that. But now I am sick.

I came down with the stomach flu Sunday night. I stayed home flat on my back all day monday and am still home today (tuesday) I will be good to go tomorrow, but that's two more sick days.

This leaves me with only two remaining sick days. Of course I will be building up more sick days. About 1 a month. But I am still a little worried about the little bit of sick leave I have left.

So I started to consider spending less time in Mexico - but I really want to go and they are expecting me to be there. Plus every which way I considered being there - I am still taking tose sick days.

I totaled it up I will have a sub in my room 9 days this month!


UGHHHHH I just don't know how to keep myself from feeling guilty that I have a sub in my room for so long!