I almost made it!

Last year I was sick ALOT!!! You name it, I had it.

This year I haven't been sick yet. I was really pleased especially with P/T conferences this week. Both times I had conferences last year I was sick and had to reschedule several conferences. It was a mess. This week I kept telling myself, "Yea!! I'm not sick this year." I wouldn't say it out loud because I didn't want to jinks it.

Well, this morning I woke up with a sore throat and a very runny nose. I was hoping it was allergies but I haven't gotten better yet today. I eyes burn like it is allergies but usually when I wake up with allergies I am okay by the end of the the day.

I guess we will see when I get home and take some allergy meds. I hope it isn't something more. Just once I want to get through P/T conferences without being sick!!!

Conferences

Have I ever mentioned how much I HATE parent teacher conferences???? Well I do. It is 5:20pm and I am still in my classroom! I have one more conference at 5:45 and the parent probably wont show. I hope she does this student needs HELP HELP HELP!!! Then after the conference I have to go to Ottawa for my class. I won't get home until 9:00. I guess I could hope that we would get out early but getting out at 8:40 is already early I shouldn't hope for more, especially when we aren't even suppose to get out until 9:30.

I have another late night of conferences on Thursday but at least I don't have class that night!

I better eat my dinner before my next conference shows. I'm always nicer on a full stomach.

Reflection

It has been a week of reflection for me. A family member is going through the same tough trial of axiety that I went through 7 years ago. She sent out a plea for help and it was amazing to see the response she got from family and friends. I was one of those family members that responded. And I am grateful I was able to help. I sent her an e-mail about my past struggle with anxiety and offered to go to her house and give her all the stuff I used to overcome my anxiety. She was very grateful and will hopefully go through the program so she can be happy again.

Because of this situation I have spent the week remembering back to when I had anxiety and how this trial in my life strengthened me. It was the darkest time in my life. I was miserable, sad, depressed and didn't know what to do. I prayed and my prayers were instantly answered through my dad. He came into my room right after I ended my prayer and gave the program and saved my life. Yes, it SAVED my life. I am a happy person now who loves life. Seven years ago I hated myself and my life. Now, I cant get enough of life!!!

Right before this plea for help from my cousin I was reading my patriarcal blessing. It mentions several times that I will work with women. I didn't know what that meant until now. I realize that because I overcame my anxiety I am able to help the women around me who now suffer as I once did.

Then to top of this entire week of self reflection I opened up my Relief Society Manual to study the lesson for today and it is all about trials. The spirit I felt while studying the lesson was so strong. I understood even more how much the Lord was there for me through my trial.

I never have and never will look back on my life with anxiety and regret it. It has made me the person I am today. It was a trial that strengthened me and helped me grow spiritually.